Nobody holds you down better than yourself, and for the past year I’ve actually grown into an entirely new artist I’m proud to share with the world.
It only felt right ending Women’s History Month by appreciating my damn self. The self that works tirelessly during the day to support another dollar and a dream at night. The self that brainstorms, plots, connects, listens, learns, and grows minute by minute. The self that’s part-time writer, part-time DJ, part-time event planner, part-time “plug”, and full-time student.
During the BE UNIQUE seminar last Friday, the incredibly talented Kitty Cash explained that, when she’s in public, she’s “Kitty Cash”. Nobody is checking for the “Cash” that’s at home on the sofa with family and friends; she’s a brand in the public eye and must represent so. I’ve realized more and more, that I’m not just Amanda. When I’m out, people compliment my blog, tell me they listen to my mixes or even follow my social. I’ve had people come out just to see me DJ… It’s crazy! It’s kind of weird to go from writing behind the scenes about all of my idols, favorite artists, and even friends to sort of growing into an artist that can be on their level. ALTernate Ears started off as a website to promote amazing music you won’t hear on the radio. It set out to just be a platform and outlet for emerging and underground artists to feel comfortable with sharing their work. I promise, never ever EVER in a billion light years did I think ALTernate Ears would become a brand, let alone an artist.
Unlike my typical spotlights, this is more of a personal piece both reflecting and accepting. ALTernate Ears is really real. Whether you saw the side of ALT spinning at Webster Hall or you saw the side of ALT throwing her monthly HOTACTiON parties, there’s an entirely different part of me that’s been blossoming, and I can’t deny it any longer. I’m a self-proclaimed introverted-club lover, because as much as I love supporting my friends at their night shows, I would much rather be bundled up in the dark with a pint of ice cream and Netflix by my side. I can be exuberant during my own parties and radiate joy, but, the moment I’m done, I go into my crab-like shell and hibernate from humans for a while. It sounds like I’m a walking contradiction, and anyone else wouldfind it challenging balancing both sides of my personality…but it just works.
I’m enamored of nightlife in New York; there’s literally nothing else that excites me more than seeing my circle thrive with their parties, shows, sets, etc. and it’s truly a blessing to be able to do so myself under ALTernate Ears. I’m also obsessed with writing and sharing new sounds, ideas, views, etc. While curating nightlife and event planning is something that’ll probably give me more grays than Obama in his first term, there’s no other stress I would prefer in my life over it. The”DIY Shawty” is literally in full effect, and I’m proud to say so. I’m proud of all of that I accomplished in 2016 alone, even though I constantly feel like I’m not doing much with my life (I am, I’m just hard on myself).
I’ve played by the books my whole life: graduated from high school, went straight to college, got a great education and did curricular activities or internships, bla bla bla. Now, for the first time ever I’m just going with the flow and playing by my own guidelines, not that textbook crap everyone tries to feed us.
Shoutout to me and every other woman out there that’s proud of where they are today. I’m proud to be a millenial, I’m proud to be AfroLatina, I’m proud to be a “struggling artist” (although I can’t say I’m struggling that hard thanks to my amazing family). I’m proud of all of the negatives because they always influence more positive. I guess, this post was really moreso for myself… to show myself that I can do anything I set my mind to with ALTernate Ears. If that’s not an artist to spotlight, then I don’t know who is.
Now, go checkout THEE CONVERSATION I had about one of my favorite artists of all time: